Anger is a tough emotion to squash. Sometimes even harder to identify as the culprit behind your unhappiness. Through much body and energy work, I realized that I have been, very orderly, packing away internally many emotions of anger arising from life situations. I say very orderly because I did an exercise to release much of this anger, and in the process, found it very easy to pull out, situation after situation, many of these anger emotions.
I am a very easy-going, mellow personality… I don’t like drama, and will generally put forth the extra, extra effort to keep things moving smoothly. Over the years in my close and intimate relationships it has meant suppressing my true feelings, going with the flow and giving into others. This has not always been a good thing! The consequences of doing this has now landed me into a place where… yes, I am now forced to deal with anger emotions stored over many, many years. So… how am I doing that?
Recently in meditation, I observed two very charged spheres inside me. One was small, yet very strong, and was of love and joy. The other was very large and stagnant, and was of hurt and anger. Afterwards, I realized I needed to actively begin working on clearing and releasing all of that hurt and anger. I want it gone! I began a plan of aggressive practices of body work to help me through this process… Reiki, yoga, deep tissue massage, alignment and meditation drawing in source energy.
One event in particular which I’m sharing here as a way to express and release feelings of anger… I wrote down events that have caused significant anger emotions that I was still carrying. I expressed why I was angry at myself, and why I was angry at another person. I cut each one out separately from the list and laid them on top of each other. I then lit a crown chakra candle, spent time reading over each situation individually, and acknowledged the good that came out of each situation. One at a time I affirmed the situation not having any meaning anymore, lit the paper with the candle, and released the anger, letting it go.
Great releasing exercise! But understand once most likely will not be enough! Daily interactions with others, and unforeseen situations can cause more anger to surface. Don’t let it linger, or internalize. Find a way to spend some time with it, make peace with it and let it go!
My anger as a pile of ashes!
In love and light!